Okay I chickened out going to the hospice this morning because I felt that if I went in myself I would cry all the time. 🥺😩😭 So my husband John took all my homemade cards instead. He said that they were extremely grateful and a few of the staff were saying “oh I like this one and that one” which made me feel happy. 😊 Apparently they are having a Christmas fair this weekend so they said that they’d arrived at the perfect time. 🌲
I’ve had so many feelings over the weekend, I suppose it’s because it’s this time of year again and the memories keep flooding back and when I combine all of the three major happenings, the death of my mum last Christmas Eve which prompted me to write the following five little angels poem for her funeral as shown below.
Five little angels knew mum’s time was near
folding their wings around her, they said do not fear
Four little angels arranged for a choir to sing some hymns,
knowing the comfort their voices would bring
Three little angels told mum to look into the light,
following their guidance, she saw a beautiful sight
Two little angels saw mum’s family waiting, their arms outstretched
so they gently passed mum over, to her final rest
One little angel said, don’t be sad, you won’t be far apart
although you can’t see her, she is forever in your heart.
My Myxoma removal in May
I never did show you my scar properly did I ? 😱 sorry I couldn’t resist! 😈
Finally
It feels like the end of a long painful process and yet I know that it’s just the beginning of something new. New beginnings are good but yet also a little bit scary.
Those cards carried all my emotions and I should feel as light as a feather and in a strange way I do but now I know I’ve got to somehow get my five little angels poetry published. 🤔 I might look at the self publishing route on Amazon.
Anyway I’ve survived ☺️ I’m a survivor 🥳
It’s onwards and upwards now!
Thanks for reading, listening, viewing, commiserating, laughing and for just being YOURSELVES ❤️ I love you all. x
Loosing my mother was all my loses piled into one: my dad, may sister, my brothers. It was really hard and it took me a long time to recover. It’s okay that you couldn’t go to hospice right now. There will be another time when you feel stronger. Your artwork is beautiful, Elaine. Have you considered selling them online? Just a thought 🙂
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That Cat reminds me of Greebo, the scary cat from Discworld
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My husband agrees he’s a great fan of Terry Pratchett 🙀
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What a great honest post. And you look gorgeous by the way! Love that color on you. I’m sure the cards will fly out and you’ll be undulated with orders.🥰🤗🥰👍👏👌❤
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I can do undulated ☺️ thanks Cheryl ❤️
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I meant inundated. Spell check!
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Hahah
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One year is still short within the span of grieving. I’m glad you knew your limits. Your gesture with the cards is just as beautiful with your husband delivering them. What a strong woman you are.
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We all find strength when we need it 😇 thanks Rebecca x
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I’m not sure I really like the whole ‘you’re an inspiration’ thing, but it seems so fitting here, because you are. I’m not surprised this has left you with so many emotions recently. It’s a lot to process, a lot of memories and things going on and ‘moving forward’ is scary, too. I’m glad John was able to take these in. I didn’t have any doubt they’d love them. xx
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You know me well Caz and you been a massive help over the last year, thank you ❤️
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I would’ve probably been unable to do it as well. I knew they’d like them! What a scar, Elaine – wow! You’ve been through so much this year. It’s great to see you with your art and your new little kitty – the peace you need 🙂
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Thanks Robyn it’s onwards and upwards now ❤️
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It’s been a year, Elaine!
You’ve done it, you’re here, and you’re managing. Keep on keeping on and all that… there’s a future ahead! 🌼
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There is Tom because after darkness comes light and it will be dazzling 😉🥳❤️
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What a tough year you have travelled Elaine. Your cards will all find perfect homes, and I hope your angels make it to Amazon too. xx
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😊😇❤️
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Wow, Mia actually shares the footstool with you?! You must be special..
That scar is a trophy to your resilience, courage and survivability. It’s very neat.
M had a lump removed from his thigh recently (it was benign but starting to turn). The dr who stitched him up must have been a learner. It was not neat sewing. Then she took them out too soon and it all opened up so he had to be restitched. This time I got him to leave them in for twice as long and took them out myself. His scar is only small compared to yours. And nowhere near as pretty.
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I’m glad she didn’t operate on me 😬
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You should be. It would not be anywhere near as pretty!
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Happy for you.
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Thank you 😊
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