What a day!


No digital art because I haven’t had time ๐Ÿ˜“

The day started early for me getting out of bed when it was still dark ๐Ÿ˜ฌ which is not something I normally do. Mum was having a pressure cushion delivered to her house and I wanted to be there early because I was going to clean her house from top to bottom.

I got to her house and used my key to get in. The house looked strange because the settee and corner unit with all her china ladies in had been moved to accommodate the hospital bed which is due tomorrow.

I sat in her chair looking around and began crying ๐Ÿ˜ข is it any wonder I’m dehydrated ๐Ÿฅต it amazes me how easy it is for me to cry. I picked up my dads photo and began to talk to him saying I never thought I would see this day and told him that I had kept the promise that I had made him about looking after mum.

The doorbell rang and I quickly dried my eyes and went to the door. Mum lives in a little local authority bungalow and a young man was stood there! He had come to check all the electrics I had completely forgotten ๐Ÿ˜ฌ I explained that mum was in hospital and he said he could check everything but I would be without electricity for approximately two hours.

I then felt myself filling up with yet more tears ๐Ÿ™„ and said could it be done another time because mum had not got long to live! I can smile now because he looked so shocked ๐Ÿ˜ฎ He said it was not a problem and he would inform his office and leave me in peace.

I turned away from the front door and caught sight of myself in the mirror. I looked shocking and even worse I noticed that I was wearing my blouse inside out ๐Ÿ˜œ

I pulled myself together and began cleaning the windows and mirrors before vacuuming and mopping the floors. I decided to have a break and made myself a cup of tea. My mums fridge is like no other fridge, it’s filled with biscuits lol, every biscuit you can imagine, why are they in the fridge? Because she can’t fit them in her cupboards because they are full of tins of big soup!

I also noticed lots of packets of sweets which she liked to give to her 11 great grandchildren. I took a packet of foam bananas even though I shouldn’t eat too much sugar , what the hell I was dehydrated ๐Ÿฅต๐Ÿ˜

The cushion arrived in the Medi Quip van which stayed parked out side for ages. I was pleased she wasn’t there to see it because she would have been put out thinking that the neighbours would be wondering what they were delivering to her house.

The only person who knows about her illness is her next door neighbour, I’m hoping the young man who wanted to do the electric work doesn’t tell anyone about the woman who was snivelling about her ill mother or I will be in deep doggie do do ๐Ÿฅบ

My daughters went to see mum this morning, visiting starts at 10am and they arrived at 10.05 so they where told “your late! “. My sister went after work and apparently mum was confused and rambling a bit. She said the doctor said she would be coming home next Wednesday but I will believe it when I see it.

It is becoming very clear that mum will not be able to be left on her own at night due to the confused state she is increasingly experiencing and it’s something that we need to speak to The McMillan nurses about.

I’m going for my hair cutting and colouring tomorrow morning to cover the ever increasing grey hair ๐Ÿ‘ฉโ€๐Ÿฆณ I would leave it but it’s grey at the front and dark at the back ๐Ÿ˜Š Why is life never simple ๐Ÿ™‚๐Ÿ™ƒ๐Ÿ™‚