Awake in the night again!

After a wild and windy day yesterday all is calm, the full moon is shining through my window and I’m wide awake. My painting journey is taking me on so many twists and turns as I sit here in the lounge looking at so many different paintings on my wall.

Yesterday I prepared a canvas in my new-found marble effect style

Now I’m wondering what I am going to add to it 😬  First I will have to add a bit more water and smudge the colours together. I love the fact that I am no longer afraid of spoiling a painting. I’m just sometimes confused as to what to paint. Take for example yesterday’s windy day painting, I had prepared the canvas using four different colours then I splashed little drops of watery paint on top and left it to dry. I honestly thought that I had far too much paint on the canvas and tried to rub some off but it was having non of it . 😏

Every time I walked into the craft room I looked at the canvasΒ πŸ€”Β I was like a beast stalking its prey waiting for some sort of inspiration. I felt that I had overdone the base, what on earth was I going to add to it! Later in the day as I walked past it, I thought that it looked like a storm had hit it. I picked up my brush with no thought and started to dab paint. The beauty of these types of paintings is you cannot Β really spoil them.

I can see why some of my paintings look almost childlike because I do not put lots of thought into them. I just paint . I don’t strive for perfection, which is just as well! because if I think too much about what I am doing it doesn’t work.

What I do is lie awake in the night trying to connect with something within me that will enable me to create something different. I described myself to John as feeling like a bird trying to get comfortable in my nest πŸ₯ this amused him no end ☺️

I am swayed towards biblical themes but I don’t think there really is a market for them even though they are well received on this here.

Perhaps I will never find my niche 😳

Perhaps I will never sleep well again!

Perhaps I am meant to suffer for my art.

Perhaps I’m getting a bit dramatic 😬

Perhaps I need a cup of tea and a chocolate biscuit πŸͺ

hmm liking that idea. πŸ˜‹

Perhaps I need to take some medication 😏

Yours sincerely,

A tortured, sleep deprived would be artist πŸ‘©β€πŸŽ¨