Awake in the night.


It’s 3 o’clock in the morning ( isn’t that a song title) and here I am sat awake thinking deep thoughts about my journey through life. Perhaps it an age thing 😬 I’ve always been healthy apart from the last couple of years which is ironic considering that it’s  only in the last few years that I’ve been the happiest I’ve ever been in my life.

Finally I found the right man for me, third time is a charm 😉 at last someone who gets me, doesn’t want to change me, he just wants me to be the best that I can be. My life has been a struggle, I don’t think I realised just how much of a struggle it was until now and I can’t help wondering if this invisible illness that I am experiencing is the last part of me releasing the pain I held or maybe still hold a little of inside.

Writing and more recently painting has been an enormous help too in expressing the real me. I love nothing more than starting a blank canvas with no thoughts about what I am going to paint. I am currently working on a painting which somehow is displaying my painting journey,  i.e. in that a little bit of my previous paintings are merging into one 🤔 Is it any wonder I can’t sleep!

I believe that life is a journey of experiences, lessons, happiness and pain for without sorrow how can we know happiness. I believe we have to trust in a higher force than ourselves believing that we are following the path we are meant to follow, trusting that everything happens for a reason.

We are meant to meet certain people on our journeys through life who we can both help and be helped by and I believe I’ve met a fair few of those people on here for which I am extremely grateful. So thank you 😊

Keep smiling and remember tomorrow is another day.

I feel better now so I will say goodnight and God bless 😉

Elaine x