Awake in the night.


It’s 3 o’clock in the morning ( isn’t that a song title) and here I am sat awake thinking deep thoughts about my journey through life. Perhaps it an age thing 😬 I’ve always been healthy apart from the last couple of years which is ironic considering that it’s  only in the last few years that I’ve been the happiest I’ve ever been in my life.

Finally I found the right man for me, third time is a charm 😉 at last someone who gets me, doesn’t want to change me, he just wants me to be the best that I can be. My life has been a struggle, I don’t think I realised just how much of a struggle it was until now and I can’t help wondering if this invisible illness that I am experiencing is the last part of me releasing the pain I held or maybe still hold a little of inside.

Writing and more recently painting has been an enormous help too in expressing the real me. I love nothing more than starting a blank canvas with no thoughts about what I am going to paint. I am currently working on a painting which somehow is displaying my painting journey,  i.e. in that a little bit of my previous paintings are merging into one 🤔 Is it any wonder I can’t sleep!

I believe that life is a journey of experiences, lessons, happiness and pain for without sorrow how can we know happiness. I believe we have to trust in a higher force than ourselves believing that we are following the path we are meant to follow, trusting that everything happens for a reason.

We are meant to meet certain people on our journeys through life who we can both help and be helped by and I believe I’ve met a fair few of those people on here for which I am extremely grateful. So thank you 😊

Keep smiling and remember tomorrow is another day.

I feel better now so I will say goodnight and God bless 😉

Elaine x


  1. I too have those restless nights, often around the full moon 🙂 I would suggest your intuition about what is happening to you is spot on. We hold memories in our cells (as scars, bruises if you like) and when the time is right it is released.

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  2. When George and I moved to Enid, and I was away physically and mentally from all those horrible stresses in Texas, I became ill. Hadn’t been sick for years then suddenly I was. I really think that our bodies release toxins after stress has dissipated. Maybe that is what has been happening with you. I do know (on a different note) that I am grateful to have found you and your blog. You inspire me, you make me laugh and your art simply takes my breath away. I am so glad that you have John in your life…as I am sure he cherishes having YOU in his life!

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    1. Thanks Susan I appreciate your words, I’ve been missing your posts and I’ve just found that somehow 😬 I was not following you 😳 Now I am 🤚


  3. Hi Elaine. I love the colours in this angel photo, especially the green – a beautiful shade. I am very grateful to have found your blog and read about your day to day life, your mom and your relationship with John and your grandchildren. Of course your wonderful paintings as well – all very uplifting and thought-provoking. I think the illness you have been experiencing lately might very well be your body cleansing itself of all your earlier, less happy and more toxic, years. Once all those toxins are out, you will feel calm, cleansed healthy. x

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  4. I think I love this angel more than all the others! There’s something so special about her. I agree with the other comments. Perhaps it is a part of you, you are letting go. I have many nights like that. At some point, perhaps later in the day when I’m truly awake, I feel lighter. Hopefully this is the same for you 🙂

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  5. Sometimes when I can’t sleep, I go down to the kitchen and get two Laughing Cow cheese wedges out of the refrigerator. I can’t explain why, but about a half hour after I eat them they put me back to sleep. I don’t know if Laughing Cow cheese is sold where you live, but if it is, give it a try. It comes in lots of cheese flavors. 🙂

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